As I sit having a small break between Reiki’s for today, I am reflecting on my 2013 and have this huge swell of emotion as to what I have achieved personally and professionally this year.
Imagine me holding your face in my hands and asking for full eye contact. It’s ok, I’ve brushed my teeth.
If you are here reading this, first of all, from the bottom of my heart: THANK YOU; you are helping my blog to crack the 33,000 mark today.
Secondly, I want you to really soak in the words you read as I energetically hold your face and say:
You just have to back yourself and let it happen.
I had my wake up calls.
I’ve cured my people pleasing disorder.
I got to see wins with my lovey when I finally decided to just be who I am with my belief systems and accept that he may want to run screaming the other way. He didn’t. He has done everything he is capable of doing with what he has to step up and do the work too. I love him more than I ever thought possible to love a human that hasn’t grown and exited my body after 40 weeks of hefa-lumpness.
Because of my new found peace of mind, I am connecting with my kids more than I ever have. I have not been living in my worry about my business or fitting in or paying bills.
I got to travel my first long haul in 16 years and experience a little bit of America for the first time and my third major flood event in two years. The energy of suffering and loss when you are an energy worker is tough, but you get through it. As a result, it was the first chapter of my just BE-ing. I’m really proud to say that as at 31 December, 2013, I reckon I’ve got the hang of it.
I found my soul pod. I have the most extraordinary group of people in my life now. Meeting soul mates in September with long distance friendships spanning 16 years to four years – my heart truly sang for the longest time.
I came back to Australia to walk straight into a group of women that I have been asking for for the longest time. Women on the same page. All of them. Women who I know as 2014 gets cracking will be friendships that will change the world.
Through the work I do with Juli to support other women, I learned about operating energies and I finally found the final peace (yes peace) I needed in my puzzle about being ok with who I am at my very core. Those lines we are fed by others in our families and circles about who we are supposed to be because they instruct you from their story and when you are young you listen because you think they know what they are talking about.
I’m still holding your face now: THEY DON’T KNOW SHIT… heads up though, stay in compassion and move into awareness.
I was stretched to the point of vom-voms not long ago with a legal issue that has shown up from my chronic people pleasing days. I turned to my best friend and fellow Goddess for a heads up from my soul camp. They’ve never let me down. I reiki’d myself, I meditated, I kept the overwhelm at bay and I did just what they said I should do. I finally followed the guidance to a tee, and bugga me if they weren’t right. As much as my head was screaming at me NOOOO, I did what I was supposed to. The clarity that arrived was nothing short of mind blowing.
In 2006 I read a book. It changed my life in many ways. When I finished reading it, I remember closing the cover and saying “I will meet this person one day” and in 2013 I have and I am so glad. I had the same situation with my beautiful husband, the second time I saw him ever, we said something almost simultaneously, and I remember the thought that came into my head at that moment, that we would marry one day. We did six years after that thought and that was 13 years ago.
Face holding again: Take your hands off the wheel with the how and why and just know that when the time is right, it will show up.
So, that’s my 2013. The year Amanda became ready for the biggest life possible, surrounded by the right people who love her as much as she loves them and she will never ever have to step out of the sand-box she’s in now because it was made just for her.
I wish you this and more for your 2014. I encourage you to be grateful for your 2013, no matter how it showed up. The gifts you’ve received this year are too many to count, you will realise this before you know it.
Big squiggy cuddles and adeus 2013, it’s been fun.